I want to share a poem that I wrote over break at the Justice Conference in LA this past month. It was inspired by one of the many themes of the conference that reiterated that our Justice must be fueled by perfect love. In light of recent events here on campus, I dedicate this poem to my friends.
My Justice is weak justice, blind justice. Subjective.
I saw the overlooked and,
I gave them a voice at the cost of shutting the mouth of the oppressor.
Like all I wanted to do was stun them with the brilliance of my wit
to shock them with the love I was showing the unloved and overlooked.
I knew something was wrong
I sought out what was right, but I didn’t understand:
that the enemy was NOT the flesh and blood staring back at me.
No, friends, the enemy was the paradigm
In my passion, I lost
I lost my strength and hope.
I was standing alone, fighting, raising my voice.
So I shut up—and eventually shut down.
My heart died before my body ever did.
My heart was already dead
Then Love came
It filled my empty shell
And I fought it, because the thought of “no more misunderstandings” was all I wanted—
Because I. was. done.
God was not
Painfully was I emptied of my self-righteousness and my justice: weak, blind, silencing
Hallelujah—that was not the end of my story—or theirs
Slowly binding my heart—HIS heart—now interested in so much more than ME, MYSELF, and I!
Love pours in,
working its power in, through, and in spite of ME (that ME that so often gets in the way)
I always wondered why I had so many holes and scars on my heart—now I know
They are necessary for LOVE, perfect Love, to pour in and most importantly, out…
to all, even the opponents
So who’s stunned now? I tell you, it ain’t Jesus!
So last week was one of those kinds of weeks. You know the kind that are so busy you don’t have the time to think or even breathe it feels like, but everything is due and you have people counting on you. It was so bad, that come Tuesday night I didn’t think I was going to survive to see the weekend. And yet here we are, at the beginning of a brand new week with new struggles and challenges, and here is the story of how I made it.
Tuesday night I was advised to actually sleep, and so I did. I decided to take Wednesday as an offering to God. I spent the morning praying and trusting that God would be able to keep me sane the rest of the day, week, month, and eventually semester. I was at the end of my rope, but somehow I knew it was the perfect place for God’s strength to be displayed.
As the rest of the week went by, it didn’t get any less hectic, but I learned to view each day as a gift. God has given me the great opportunity to be here at CUI, he has given me a job, and the ability to study hard. All these things are gifts, not burdens. So I am learning how to be thankful for what I have been so graciously given.
Dear Reader, being a student here at CUI isn’t the easiest thing in the world. I know it’s hard to learn how to grow up, do adult things, and be responsible for yourself, but the thing is, you and I are so blessed. God is working in your life, chiseling away the chaff and refining you to be more like Christ. So take heart, beloved, Jesus has overcome. He is your strength. He WILL sustain you, that’s a promise.
How many of you have seen #AskWASC floating around on Concordia’s website/social media sites recently? If you have, chances are you have probably seen the smiling face of a student who won a prize or a fun tidbit about a thing called WASC.
WASC, though it sounds like wasp, has nothing to do with insects, but everything to do with Concordia’s reputation. WASC stands for Western Association of Schools and Colleges. According to their website, WASC says it, “is responsible for the evaluation of the quality and effectiveness of colleges and universities offering the baccalaureate degree and above in California, Hawaii, Guam, and the Pacific Basin” which basically means that they make sure that standards are met here at CUI.
During the rest of February and up until March 26, CUI will be hosting a sweepstakes event in the effort to raise awareness as to what WASC is and why it’s important to us a school. Check out previous winners to learn more about Concordia’s history with WASC, other fun trivia, and get in on the fun while it lasts!